this is mad/sick ill and rich

busting out  the bank with billions death by the millions money coming in hundreds grown ups in the nineties flash back to the eighties flashback a lil faster to the sixties skip the fifties remember the forties while right now parents asking kids can we afford these and in school she saying dog please who you trying to be

akon was so lonely now he wantin to make love right now usher was letting it burn giving his confessions and now he writing papers chris brown wanted to be with you and now he gonna transform ya drake sayin you the best now he talkin bout forever

to the thirties idk about then but now in africa people still complainin the water dirty people starvin and hungry and here we are today throwin food away each day cuz it isnt served to us our way talk bout selfish when we dont know how to be selfless with still alot to learn we keep goin learnin and learnin everyway we can i guess but wat can i say that you havent heard today

sick let me poke you with a stick let you know wat its like in reality thinkin hell is home and school aint no better its a cold world make sure you wear a sweater teachers telling you that you can do better it could be worse you could be dead lying up and looking to your bed for a hundred years still scared to face your fears when storytime comes you stuck outside not sure what to say or who you gonna be

i dont want to lie to you again but it comes so easy just like i say im sorry i wish i didnt wish that i just knew what to say but without you what  place would i leave my thoughts to lay its with confidence i guess or hope that i can say that its a blessin cuz i dont pray its what i talk to you for in my own way

if she dies i have you if you die i have him and if none of that works out i’ll keep going because you told me to

thank you for readin the mad/sick ill and rich

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i like the way you do things i wish i could be like you in a way to be happy and laugh all day and have friends more than one to play
i like making you happy writing stuff for you at least trying to get that smile to show
im bored and tired wish i had energy wish i didnt sleep cuz bad things seem to happen while i have dreams
want to do a lil better whatever makes you proud but i forget things and im one to protect im just a small project a start with no end with only one thing to defend cuz when she goes i will have no one and when you walk away i will be alone but stay because i love you that should be reason enough for my love never fades or stops
catch me before my heart drops

keep my name out of your mouth

how do you want me to feel? what do you expect from me?
one moment you want me and next you are gone like the wind
your good at what you do and everyone has reason to be proud of you
there are many people not a select few who are blessed just because they are talking to you
what do you want me to say? how would you like me to respond? What would make you happy?
the answers i dont know
what you want i try to provide
i keep most of how i feel inside and enjoy the happy ride
quit complaining and embrace live extol yourself to the highest and remain humble in what you do
its time to quit worrying about me and focus on you

You are awesome! we all are, we inspire each other’s awesomeness and be our best selves that we can be so keep my name out of your mouth and show yourself how much you love you

Tough love

you and i both know

You and I both know that i’m stupid

You and I both know what I want to happen and that it will happen

You and I both know that you’re awesome

You and I both know i’m not very bright

You and I both know that life isn’t fair all the time

You and I both know that I don’t write when i’m happy

You and I both know how great your life is gonna be

You and I both know that your gonna accomplish and achieve your dreams

You and I both know you have talent

You and I both know that I have no brain or brawn not enough to be good enough

You and I both know that i’ll never be close enough to touch the sky but you always catch the shiny star making your wish for the best

You and I both know that you do your best no less and you share it with everyone even me, even though i don’t deserve your presence or grace but then again

You and I both know that to see each other face to face would be me bringing your name to disgrace with my distaste, ugliness, and nefarious actions

You and I both know that I engender people into being pugnacious with each other

You and I both know that I hinder your progress while you delineate my feelings and show copious amounts of love and compassion

You and I both know that i efface happiness from my thoughts constantly yet

You and I both know you kindle my thoughts and enhance my dream helping them to become wider and better

 You and I both know that you help me improve vernacular through what we say

You and I both know that you stick with me when i’m querulous

You and I both know that at times i can be a glutton and am ready to obliterate what we have created

You and I both know that you are an artisan

You and I both know it isn’t easy to quell a raging fire

You and I both know that through my obscure ways it’s never easy but never too hard

You and I both know people extol you for your greatness whether i’m around or not

You and I both know that you are full of humility and not one to tout

You and I both know during a hiatus or working time I always learn something that we are endlessly teaching each other

You and I both know that I thank you for your love, support, and wisdom

Affairs of the heart

when i beat for you the thought of you sad makes me panic and race but knowing that you are happy helps me relax and calms me down. my heart stops beating moments at a time when you’re mad whether at me or a friend you are the chicken soup for my soul the exercise of my heart and mind taking my breath away when we talk the way you speak makes me listen in a whole new way making me happy to be in this world you are such a help to me if i understood it myself i still wouldn’t know how to thank you the right way your awesome and always will be in my eyes mind and heart thanks for being my light and what i look forward to every day

liability not an asset (an angry not so happy poem thingy)

You would leave me if you had the chance you wouldnt take me with you its everyone for themselves in this world i would just be a liability not an asset i would be your roadblock in your mission slowing you down till i required you to stop and just kick me out thats what you want me gone away from you and all the places you go to you would give me orders and demeands and i will do nothing else but follow your commands im a bad seed poision to the rest of you all i caution and warn you to sat aweay thinking you would never take me to your place or anywhere cuz im a liability not an asset

a poem about school written on a friday (i think)

we get up when the sky is barely blue waiting at the corner for the bright shade of yellow walk through halls stuck in class confined within walls until the bell rings we walk out the door to sky turned purple-ish gray the noon passed and lunch eaten we rush for dinner before the night comes near we laugh and talk for a while then the time comes to face the dreaded fear given to us every year the little paper we must finish to the story we have to read the feared homework dont fret there wont be a test you can finally rest because its the weekend we are free let the fun begin!

i improved today

i thought positive for a couple minutes

unfinished thoughts

You are beautiful both in and out you are awesome i can’t say that enough You make me happy all the time in ways i dont know how to express you give me hope when i know you are always going to be there i get strength when thinking of you it’s not finished yet but what do you think?

dying silently maybe

My love would be the sun forever burning in my chest that would be
true if i werent experiencing heartburn my stomach bubbles with
anticipation of seeing you again that would be true if i werent
experiencing diaherrea my sides ache with the pain of joy from you
laughter that would be true if you were laughing my lips make a smile
knowing that i’ve haven’t stopped you from crying because they brought
you grave news that i’m dying. what do u think of this poem?