Today was a good day if i ever write again and i still remember it i will tell you. Tonight not good i have officially lost my mind going against the friend who has helped me most and its not helping me at all. Im so mad at myself im blinded by fury erasing everything that isnt me. Im done. I shouldnt even be here. There arent enough sorry in the world. I cant be patient im mad at myself i have boiled over. I cant take back what i said. Why cant i understand? Im so stupid!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I cant deal with this. Im sorry i bothered you. I sorry i bother you. Im sorry i breathe. I wish i didnt.