(I said a while ago, that I would post this. I was upset so I grabbbed pencil and paper. But there was no light, I still decided to write. I wrote in the dark.)
I can not see the lines in front of me.
do I ever act on the writing
This could all be invisible
This pencil could be unsharpened ~
If I bring this closer the dots just get darker. I hope I am
words are on this paper
I want to kill myself, the dots follow the pencil and the words are unclear I dont think
I don’t think I am dreaming with no lights the paper still looks fresh
This paper feels blank, I am blind I don’t want to turn on the light and ruin the surprise,
If any, If not I have sped up my demise.
This is a nightmare if this is real.
escape my eyes
and my outlet to write
How will my spirit end?
I’ve gone off the deep end
lost all that I can depend on
If I really am writing after all I will switch to pen
I looked but will I understand what has come from my own hand.
I want to die, I have lost my mind, I don’t know where I am yet I can think clearly even though I am not speaking, on the inside I am screaming.
(This is where/when I said I was going to post Pink Rage: https://fly1623.wordpress.com/2011/06/07/a-few-posts-in-1/
new post coming soon it might be title Pink Rage. i wrote it in the dark so bear with me while i try to decipher it um i think thats it so far. im sorry if i made anyone unhappy with my writing. do i ever write positive?? well im going to try harder i know ive said that like 20 times but i will for sure.