there are things i struggle with controlling:
lying- i used to lie about who i was. i consider this blog as a part of me where i can be honest, but not many of my family or friends know about it because i dont tell them. i dont tell colleges, i dont want to be viewed as someone who is sad if they were to read the entire blog
porn- its not everyday, i just think about it sometimes then watch it. i dont know why. i try to understand why people perform such things but i cant even imagine the reasons, and in the end by watching im helping the industry continue to strive..
the things people would do for money, whats the goal of the people performing these things, and why its available: are things that i dont understand.
being sad- when no one talks to me i feel alone. when i feel alone i think about dying. i try to read the news or watch videos about interesting things to distract my mind. i read stories of suicide sometimes, watch violent videos, they dont make me feel better but i think “could i even go that far?”
- Do you struggle with any of the things that I struggle with?
- If you ever need someone to talk to, you can go to www.groundwire.net they are not for suicide prevention or crisis purposes unless you (or the person you are helping is going to) talk to them directly.
- If you feel suicidal please know that you are not alone, you can talk to people at the following websites and numbers:
The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-8255 www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org
Boys Town National Hotline 1-800-448-3000
The Hope Line 1-800-394-4673 www.thehopeline.com
- If you are struggling with an addiction to porn you can look at:
I hope this helps, I know addictions can be overcome. I am not sure if it can be done alone, but I know it can be done. You can do it! I can do it! We’re awesome people, and after we help ourselves we can make the world awesome 😀