Fly1623's Blog…..I like Cake

Just another WordPress.com weblog

love may come as a surprise


Advertisements

plans


I plan on finishing my 2 year degree in college.

I plan on moving out of the house.

I plan on killing myself.

 

I have had plans of better things:

getting a masters degree in social work

volunteering more

living with a friend

going different places

 

But

Im not doing those plans anymore.

 

Whats going to happen when I die?   this site, and any other accounts I have on the internet will still remain active. I  wont have someone continue writing here. I wont have someone notify you of me dying.     the day of:  im not going to say goodbye, apologize, or even do a speech.

Why do I want to die? I don’t know. I still don’t think im going to have a good future. im not looking forward to getting older. im a hypocrite telling others don’t give up when they want to die, yet im planning on dying myself.     I feel like nothing I say matters, if im not going to listen to what others say as well.

Why am I going to finish getting the degree if I plan on killing myself?  to make my mom happy. she wanted me to go to college even though I didn’t want to.

Why am I going to move out of the house? so my family doesn’t see it happen or have to be around to deal with everything. not sure if im just going to do it outside where there isn’t anyone, or save up money buy an apartment and do it there.

 

 

God, No I Screamed, by Huniie


This is a spoken word piece talking about the child hood sexual abuse Huniie went through as a child. It has already helped women in domestic violence situations to realize what they and their children are going through is abuse.
Please take a moment to share it with others, you just never know who, you maybe helping.

Thank you
Huniie
http://www.huniiezxpressionz.com

the same..


they say you’re blessed to make it another year,

 

well what about the days before.

 

its all a blessing taken for granted.

blah


damn it all man and just live.

been a while (stupidity at its finest)


whats up, I don’t know how long its been since I wrote here, I don’t even check the website anymore. and now that im typing here and knowing where it’s going to end up I wish I had more time to type everything I want to say. but I don’t have that time because I have a crap load of homework to do.

First off im not doing good im not doing well and im not doing bad. but I am not dead. I guess that’s good if you like me, right?

Second im still in college. this is my second year. im failing currently and I have one semester left to go if I pass all the things that im taking now, and Im not; yet like the person I am I told everyone and their family about. so failing is just a secret between us.

Third today sucked.
I found out that a friend of mine committed suicide on her birthday.
I got into a fight with a really good friend of mine.
I heard from someone who I was told committed suicide but then I was mean to them and they disappeared again.
I have loads of homework I just found out is due tomorrow, so I’m going to pull an all nighter trying to do it all.
I realized that I am a failure and I cried about it, in front of people.

Not important stuff: still not close to my mom. I go to group. I don’t play music anymore. I still have a youtube channel. I break things. I don’t take my medication. ive lost hope in a lot.

I might write here again soon because I missed this and I can talk her without scrutiny. I hope you are doing well.

Owl City – Shooting Star


life sucks


life sucks, that s not all.

rawr


means I love you in dinosaur.

 

roar

could be a lion

or maybe a bear

 

 

growl

could be a tiger

secret life


secret life

 

Ever wanted to hide everything from everyone?

You can.

so I tried..

 

 

I don’t know what I wanted to say, I planned this a while ago but never wrote it. picture taken 3-30-13

A Fine Frenzy – The Beacon


Conversation with a Baby


Prank your friends with a phone baby and get them talking about teen pregnancy. Text back 6 friends #s and we’ll send them one. Wanna try it? Text KID

Me: KID

Alright, get some sleep, your phone baby will let you know tomorrow morning when it needs you. It will text you tomorrow over a 12 hour period. Good luck!

WAHH. Oh good, you’re up! I haven’t eaten for like 3 hours… in baby time that’s like a week. Bring me breakfast?

Me: Feeds baby milk

Nom nom nom

Me: Burps baby

What you’re saying is interesting and all, but I’d just rather play with my belly button.

Me: Changes diaper

I know you’re running late bu- GRRGLEBARFFFF. Oops, sorry about your shirt. Rappers spit rhymes, I spit up.

Me: Gives you bath

All this talking is wearing me out. Let’s play the quiet game.

Don’t blame that smell on me! You know what they say, whoever smelt it dealt it…oh wait no; sorry that is me.

Me: Changes diaper

Me: Gives bath

So fresh and so clean clean

Shhhhhhh I’m getting sleepy. Nap time.

Me: sings lullaby

WAH. WAHH. WAHHH. I don’t know how to tell you what I need, so I’m just going to keep screaming until you figure it out. WAHHHHHH. Your move, Sherlock.

Me: Hugs

All this talking is wearing me out. Let’s play the quiet game.

Me: 😦

Ever try wrestling an ostrich? That’s sort of what changing me is like. Limbs eeevverywhere. And I’m oddly slippery.

Me: Change diaper

Thanks! When you smell better, you feel better

Me: Smiles

What you’re saying is interesting and all, but I’d just rather play with my belly button.

Me: I love you

School’s out! I missed you today. Come home and feed and change me so we can playyy! I think I’m starting to get good at this peek-a-boo thing.

Me: changes you

Me: feeds you

Meh I’m sorta done listening, I’d rather just play with my feet.

Me: Are you growing?

Oh, sorry. You thought I could hold it until you got the new diaper on? My B. Cleanup on aisle me!

Me: gives you bath

All this talking is wearing me out. Let’s play the quiet game.

Me: No

Hehe I know it’s predictable, but that face you make gets me everytime. Do it again! Do it again! Send me a picture so I can remember it forever!

FLARP. Was that a poop or a fart? One way to find out!

Me: Change diaper

So fresh and so clean clean

Me: 🙂

Shhhhhhh I’m getting sleepy. Nap time.

Are you suuure you have to study for your chem test? When I don’t get enough attention, I explode. Sometimes literally.

Me: Hugs

Shhhhhhh I’m getting sleep. Nap time.

You finished the day! Want info on preventing pregnancy?  Txt WAIT for waiting tips, SAFE for safe sex tips, RIGHTS for health rights, or PARENT for teen parents

Talking to friends and fam about pregnancy make it less likely to happen. Start the convo: text 5 friends’ #s to put a baby in their phone (+ enter to win 3K)

Me: WAIT

Me: SAFE

If you can’t talk openly with your parents about practicing safe sex, it’s a good idea to find another adult you trust. Text SAFE for more tips.

You look pretty beat and I’m starting to get sleepy. Sing me a lullaby and put me to bed?

Learn more about the various contraceptive methods & how to access them, should you ever change your mind. Text WAIT for more tips.

There are nearly 50 different brands of birth control pills. Text SAFE for more tips.

Me: SAFE

Me: SAFE

You can still get pregnant if you have sex while you’re on your period. Text SAFE for more tips.

Me: SAFE

Condoms are sold at pretty much every drugstore and grocery store. They are often free at family planning or STD clinics. Text SAFE for more tips,

Me: WAIT

Abstinence is the only 100% surefire way to prevent pregnancy. Text WAIT for more.

Me: WAIT

Abstinence means that you are not having sexual intercourse. Text WAIT for more info, or SAFE, RIGHTS, or PARENT

Me: SAFE

When used correctly, condoms are 98% effective at preventing pregnancy. Text SAFE for more tips.

Me: PARENT

A lot of orgs help pregnant teens w/ info, prenatal care, etc. Start by looking local Department of Health/ Department of Human Services.  Text PARENT for more.

Me: RIGHTS

26 states and the District of Colombia allow all minors (12 and older) to consent to contraceptive services. Text RIGHTS for more tips.

Me: RIGHTS

For example, all 50 states allow minors to consent to STI services without parental permission. Text RIGHTS for more tips.

Me: RIGHTS

All states have different laws in terms of receiving sexual health services. Text RIGHTS for more tips.

Me: PARENT

The US government offers nutrition and health help to moms who need it through its WIC (Women, Infants, and Children) program. Text PARENT for more tips.

Me: WAIT

Embrace the awkward. Tell ur bf or gf that you know it’s not easy to talk about, but it’s been on your mind. Chances are, they feel the same.  Text WAIT for more.

Me: WAIT

You don’t have to be a virgin to be abstinent, you can choose to abstain at any time. Text WAIT for more tips.

Me: PARENT

If you think you might be pregnant, you should get a pregnancy test right way to find out for sure. Text PARENT for more tips.

Me: WAIT

Plan in advance how you will say “no” to sexual activities. Text WAIT for more tips.

Me: SAFE

Types of contraceptives: Abstinence, male/female condom, the pill, the shot, the patch, the ring, diaphragm, cervical cap, IUD & implant. Text SAFE for more.

Me: RIGHTS

26 states and the District of Columbia allow all minors (12 and older) to consent to contraceptive services. Text RIGHTS for more tips.

Me: PARENT

A lot of orgs help pregnant teens w/ info, prenatal care, etc. Start by looking local Department of Health/ Department of Human Services. Text PARENT for more.

Me: SAFE

A sexually active teen who doesn’t use contraception has a 90% chance of becoming pregnant within a year. Text SAFE for more tips.

Me: PARENT

A lot of orgs help pregnant teens w/ info, prenatal care, etc. Start by looking local Department of Health/ Department of Human Services. Text PARENT for more.

Me: PARENT

If you think you might be pregnant, you should get a pregnancy test right away to find out for sure. Text  PARENT for more tips.

Me: PARENT

The US government offers nutrition and health help to moms who need it through its WIC (Women, Infants and Children) program. Text PARENT for more tips.

Me: PARENT

If you think you might be pregnant, you should get a pregnancy test right away to find out for sure. Text PARENT for more tips.

Me: SAFE

Condoms are sold at pretty much every drugstore and grocery store. They are often free at family planning or STD clinics. Text SAFE for more tips.

Me: WAIT

You always have the choice to decide to hold off from having sex (in or outside a relationship). Text WAIT for more tips.

Me: WAIT

More than one half of high school teens have not had sex. Text WAIT for more tips.

Me: WAIT

It helps to be honest with the person you’re dating early on that you plan to be abstinent. Text WAIT for more tips.

Me: RIGHTS

All states have different laws in terms of receiving sexual health services. Text RIGHTS for more tips.

Me: WAIT

Plan in advance how you will say “no” to sexual activities. Text WAIT for more tips.

Me: WAIT

You don’t have to be a virgin to be abstinent, you can choose to abstain at any time. Text WAIT for more tips.

Me: WAIT

More than one half of high school teens have not had sex. Text WAIT for more tips.

Me: SAFE

There are nearly 50 different brands of birth control pills. Text SAFE for more tips.

Me: SAFE

If you can’t talk openly with your parents about practicing safe sex, its a good idea to find another adult you trust. Text SAFE for more tips.

Me: SAFE

If using condoms, always pick a lubricated condom, the lubrication can help prevent breakage. Text SAFE for more tips.

Me: SAFE

Condoms are sold at pretty much every drugstore and grocery store. They are often free at family planning or STD clinics. Text  SAFE fore more tips.

Post Navigation

%d bloggers like this: